A Peace That Passes

I don't do well with the unknown. While I do have a spontaneous streak in me, I like to have things planned; I like to know what I am doing. On certain days of the week, I have particular tasks that I want to do...and if I have something else on that particular day, I like knowing some time in advance. Get the idea, I like knowing what is going on.

However, that doesn't happen in life all that often. I think God likes me to life "by the seat of my pants." After all, it makes me more dependable on Him, as I have to rely on His directions. Most of the time, I remember that God is in control.....yet I am more inclined on "my way." Or a better way to phrase it would be that I worry about what I want never happening. It's not the right way to be, I know, and I am truly content with whatever does come my way....but today, God revealed an area in which I am totally reliant on Him.
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For the past several weeks, I have been volunteering at the library. It was something that I wanted to do for years; I just procrastinated about asking for an application. When I finally did, I found out that they could use me. Now, I think they view me as a vital helper (although that could be because I bring in sweets every time I come =D). While volunteering is good enough, a job opportunity has come my way--and after praying about it, and consulting with my parents, I decided to go for it.

Let me tell you, it was interesting putting myself in a vulnerable position. I am a person who doesn't take rejection all that well; I tend to take it personally. But I knew that couldn't hold me back. I could use the salary for one thing. Plus, a job would give me something to do.......so I completed my first resume, turned it in, and prayed as I did both. Whatever He wills, I will accept.

Sure, I would love the job. It's part-time in the children's department and I love kids! But if God doesn't allow me to get it, I am say with one hundred percent honesty, that that will be okay. I won't take it personally. And it will be a sign from Heaven that I am to remain where I am planted--besides, I know that I am needed in the book mending department!

It is saying something for me to have such peace. I know that it comes from my Father alone, as it is a peace that passes all understanding. I have had that overwhelming knowledge a few times in my life.....and there is nothing better to feel completely moldable and completely at rest in His hands.
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I hope you find peace in some unknown situation today!